Its raining in SF today...buckets! I am glad I have nowhere to go and I get to stay inside the warmth of my own apartment.
I have had a fairly busy week...dinner with friends, a date, watching Juan, preparing for my interview, interviewing and celebrating St. Patrick's Day. I started my photo project and next week Alex is going to help me with the closet project. I am hoping to find something to do over the weekend to save me from wondering about the job interview the whole time. Is there anything worse than waiting for word on whether or not you got a job?? Ok, I am sure there are much worse things but for this girl it's all I have right now!! Like I said yesterday, it went well, I really liked the guy who would be my boss. I'd be recruiting for bankers/investment people/business development people etc. It sounds like a great job and the pay and benefits are great too. It would be so nice and such a relief to have a job with a salary again and to stop worrying about money all the time.
Money worries affect almost everyone I know. But for me it is really about surviving right now. I barely get enough (from unemployment) to cover my rent/groceries etc, but the thought of giving up my apartment and moving in with someone breaks my heart. This isn't just an apartment, its my home. It has been my sanctuary since the day I moved in (which was right after my split with the ex-husband). A place that has brought me comfort through some of my darkest times, has hosted lots of dinner parties with my friends where we have shared laughs, cried and confided in one another, and for a brief time, a place I spent lots of time with a man I loved...I can't for one second imagine leaving it! If I don't get this job though...I may have too. I realized this week that I need to start wrapping my head around that idea, and it isn't easy. I get fiercely defensive when my friends broach the idea with me. I know they are only trying to help, but I haven't wanted to deal with that thought..until now. If I don't get the job, I need to move and that makes me profoundly sad.
So, I am quite happy to spend the day inside today and cherish what might be my last month or two in this little apartment I love so much! And for the rest of the weekend, I hope I find something to do .... the decision about hiring me is totally out of my hands now ... all I can do is pray for Monday to come quickly and to be put out of the misery of waiting!!
Enjoy your weekend!!
Heather
I have had a fairly busy week...dinner with friends, a date, watching Juan, preparing for my interview, interviewing and celebrating St. Patrick's Day. I started my photo project and next week Alex is going to help me with the closet project. I am hoping to find something to do over the weekend to save me from wondering about the job interview the whole time. Is there anything worse than waiting for word on whether or not you got a job?? Ok, I am sure there are much worse things but for this girl it's all I have right now!! Like I said yesterday, it went well, I really liked the guy who would be my boss. I'd be recruiting for bankers/investment people/business development people etc. It sounds like a great job and the pay and benefits are great too. It would be so nice and such a relief to have a job with a salary again and to stop worrying about money all the time.
Money worries affect almost everyone I know. But for me it is really about surviving right now. I barely get enough (from unemployment) to cover my rent/groceries etc, but the thought of giving up my apartment and moving in with someone breaks my heart. This isn't just an apartment, its my home. It has been my sanctuary since the day I moved in (which was right after my split with the ex-husband). A place that has brought me comfort through some of my darkest times, has hosted lots of dinner parties with my friends where we have shared laughs, cried and confided in one another, and for a brief time, a place I spent lots of time with a man I loved...I can't for one second imagine leaving it! If I don't get this job though...I may have too. I realized this week that I need to start wrapping my head around that idea, and it isn't easy. I get fiercely defensive when my friends broach the idea with me. I know they are only trying to help, but I haven't wanted to deal with that thought..until now. If I don't get the job, I need to move and that makes me profoundly sad.
So, I am quite happy to spend the day inside today and cherish what might be my last month or two in this little apartment I love so much! And for the rest of the weekend, I hope I find something to do .... the decision about hiring me is totally out of my hands now ... all I can do is pray for Monday to come quickly and to be put out of the misery of waiting!!
Enjoy your weekend!!
Heather
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